You speak like the past is the problem in a present tense which our future can’t define.
At some time in what you think to be the most miserable moment of your life you will stumble across this quote–if you don’t like the life you live may you find the courage to change it–and you will nod your head and do nothing.
Friends keep asking me why South Korea? My face contorts into a forced grin and a rehearsed answer jumps out, “Oh I don’t know. It’s something to do. You know me–crazy!”
I often imagine myself answering honestly–”because I’ve fucked things up. I’m a coward and I don’t have the will to stay and make things right. Because, running and losing my plot is a craft in which I have beautifully mastered.” Followed by a genuine smile I would add–come and visit me, you can stay as long as you like.
All Things Considered
I prefer the blue in the restless ocean over the blue in the empty sky
adventure to security
passion over promiscuity
I prefer green tea
I prefer marigolds
I prefer eggplant- the color
I prefer the passing of time in the passage of rhyme
blue ink instead of black
metaphors over similes
I prefer brownies-with raisins
I prefer chocolate and water
I prefer pizza without pineapple
I prefer the warmth of the wind’s whisper over the chill of Winter’s evil eye
Autumnal hues over Summer’s dead and dying
Spring forward to fall back
On cloudy days I prefer W.H Auden
I prefer Edgar Degas
I prefer Claude Debussy
I prefer to add an extra line for Billy Holiday
I prefer writer’s crushing block over any other talents painful woe
poetry to prose
lyric to beat
I prefer books-the old fashion way
I prefer crooked spines
I prefer yellowed pages
I prefer our deadly silence over our deadly words and the wordless war it wages
my contradictions to your lies
a second try over saying good-bye.
People travel to wonder
at the height of the mountains,
at the huge waves of the seas,
at the long course of the rivers,
at the vast compass of the ocean,
at the circular motion of the stars,and yet they pass by themselves
—Augustine of Hippofrom Parabola Magazine
~This may have been true in Augustine’s day, but now it seems quite the opposite: people spend so much time in a state of wonder over themselves (and their smart phones) that they never notice the mountains, seas, rivers, oceans and stars, all of which pale against their own fashionable and hip magnificence. ~Nobody
Clouds can’t help
Never check first.
They have their
Own needs, or
Perhaps they work
For the sun.
She gets weary, I
Know, and like all
Of us needs to
Her Geisha Screen,
Clouds painted beautifully
For our enjoyment,
Till she’s rested and
Costumed and ready
For her adoring
Audience once again.